"It's bruise....it will fade."

Dear Tallulah -You'd think I went to bed fuming after last night, but I did not. I went to bed sad and spent. Kevin and I did not have the confrontation I thought we would. Instead there was a short war of words.....VIA text messaging.....no doubt to spare the Germans embarassment.Bottom line: I don't know why I expected more out of Kevin in this situation and not even sure why I reacted as I did. I was really caught off guard and intstead of turning the situation into a litmus test for "How Kevin Deals With Being Gay" I should have just moved on, like Steffan did. For Steffan, it really was a non-event and certainly not the first time I have ever owned up to my own truth. There are just defining moments in life that you can either dwell on and make yourself crazy with or learn from. I am choosing to learn. In life I have no control over other people and can only keep my side of the street clean, so to speak. The only thing I can change or control is my reaction to lifes little "Fuck-You's" I did expect more from Kevin and I don't know why....but that's the last time I will wait for him to step up to the plate. Very sad tho...still.